ohhhhhh friends...how do you find words for one of the best weeks of your life? it's just been indescribable. words will never do.
some things i look forward to about Heaven- 1. "seeing God as He is" and 2. maybe having a larger capacity to express to God what i love and appreciate about Him. it's so frustrating. no expressions ever begin to cut it. ever listened to david crowder's "i need words"- yeah, exactly.
some highlights from the week-

talking to some pals...one of which is taking a husband a week from tomorrow- WHAT?! oh it's so beautiful. (love ya jess, so thankful for you girl!)

God being good enough to give me new revelation on His "good and perfect gifts" - with our God being as big as He is, maybe there are more than just one "best" in different areas of our lives. just try to think of it ya'll - an infinite One giving a gift to a finite one. i mean, what're the odds that we're gonna experience some beautiful stuff the more and more deeply we press into Him?!

a prayer burden @ the chapel yesterday. He told my heart in a grievous, painful, desperate tone: My people don't know me. they run around and "do" stuff for me and try to tell others about me, but they don't take the time for solitude and silence to JUST BE with me and get to know me. and it hurts me...bad. not long after all that i dozed off listening to some goo goo dolls. woke up a little while later to the end of "iris" and the repeating of "i just want you to know who i am. i just want you to know who i am.t want you to know who i am..." yep - we'r e onto somethin here.

ummm...what a shame striving, perfectionism, humanism, and self-sufficiency are. they take God out of the equation, wear us out and keep us from true rest, from hearing His voice, and from properly enjoying Him and others and ourselves. He longs for us to see Him as a loving, patient Dad...and as my earthly pops said today- even an earthly dad would never walk around carrying a big stick just waiting to lash out on his baby if he tried to take a step and stumbled or fell. it's the same with learning to hear His voice and obey Him in all things. he doesn't expect perfection right off the bat; He does long for us to just try and keep letting Him teach us in love.
and two examples of a wife:
the first shakes her husband by the collar, lashing out & screaming "what is your will! what are we doing?! what's going on!?" and the second: chillin on the couch, snuggling up to her husband and saying 'i simply want whatever is your will. i trust you. but my first priority-can i just have more time with you?"
i mean seriously...which Bride do ya reckon God enjoys more?!

God's Law = Love. they're the same thing. He must just cry out "get rid of this stupid stuff. it separates me from you and i just wanna bless you! get rid of this, it hates and messes with you."

obedience is being a steward of what God has given us right now. not dwelling on past sin or worrying about future struggles- but the right now.

love God, love others & yourself.
keep it simple guys.