Counted the High Cost...Took the Narrow Path Gladly Anyway

The present question on the table is "Do you really believe God is just as near and you can be walking in the Spirit just as fully even now?"
Now that I am no longer full-time in the prayer house. Now that I am no longer surrounded by a dozen other Jesus-addicted, counted the cost & took the narrow path anyway, helplessly lovestruck followers of God? Now that I'm having to fight the tide of unbelief once again and trust that I have done all the human stuff I can do and God will do all the God stuff that He needs and wants to do in providing for me - in every way necessary - daily. That whether it's a bill to be paid or a possession I am so thankful for...it all belongs to Him as my Provider.

The more & more I crack open the Word in a grace-fueled gift of desire to simply know the PERSON of Jesus and not just a weak, lifeless theory or wholesome way of living a "good" life or well-educated, well-read life, but Him as a breathing, always active, emotional, interested, extremely involved, & insanely non-human-esq. lover - well I am floored. Floored by how many times He asked those around Him the question "Why?" :

"Why are you afraid? You have so little faith..."

In this question, I can almost feel the redundancy and the agony of an all-loving, all-knowing, all-powerful Being bewildered and hurt that the objects of His deepest longings simply will not fully trust Him. He must simply wrythe when we chase other little human being creations, thinking they would or could satisfy our deepest needs. Or that we could somehow take care of ourself and see Him as an afterthought or last ditch effort. HIM- being GOD. The One, The Creator...Him as Someone not worth every last ounce of our everything.
All the while, there He is, right next to each of us. Just waiting with all passion, acceptence & desire for us to decide that He is most worthy of our time, thoughts & love. For us to still ourselves- esp. our head with all its thoughts- and decide that the most worthwhile, fun, adventuresome way to spend a few hours of every day is to simply...wait in silence. Wait on Him and His desires. Stop and set aside all else for the sake of One. To give Him the chance to speak to us all the wonders & affection that any lover longs to have the chance to whisper to their beloved.

Oh, and the answer to the question chasing me since I've been back in Missouri & on a temporary break from YWAM, is "yes", most assuredly Yes. We can be just as fully engaged with God and His presence and desires for each of us and this world now, even now. Because it turns out that whether we are doing laundry, feeding homeless people, doing warfare in the spiritual/eternal realm and worshipping in a prayer house for hours on end every day, out shopping in the holiday madness and offer a smile and tender heart to a grouchy cashier, or investing in the sometimes challenging struggle of trying to communicate with those nearest to us even if it's difficult, time-consuming & seemingly mundane...in all these God is still that "Always present help when we need it".
So offer God the only thing He does not have that you alone can give to Him - You. And Your love. No matter the situation or location or who you find yourself surrounded by... know that God is the most powerful Reality we ever need.

Being a part of a 24/7 prayer & fasting team on behalf of my wonderful God's heart's desires has utterly turned my world upside down. I am so destroyed for the commonplace, ordinary, and temporary - and it's AWESOME.
Psalm 27 ... ONE thing we all have been made to truly desire... What a beautiful, mighty Conqueror we get to love, serve, and wage battle for love under.



"Intercessory Prayer" -By Dutch Sheets

Stubborness can be channeled into a righteous force called persistence or endurance- one of the most vital spiritual attributes of the Christian life. A lack of endurance is one of the greatest causes of defeat, esp. in prayer. To God, waiting is wonderful...we love microwaving while He's into marinating.

God won't satisfy the skeptic & He is not pleased with unbelief, but He loves the honest, sincere, & comfortable/trusting questions of a trusting child.

We are tired of cloaking our ignorance in robes of blind obedience & calling it spirituality. We are tired of a form of godliness void of God, void of power, void of sincere love.

Prayer is the winning blow, the strike- service is gathering up the results.

Does perhaps God do nothing on this earth save in answer to believing prayer?

Prayers of God's saints are the capitol stock of heaven by which God carries on His great work upon earth.